Found something I wrote years ago... 4ish to be exact Clearly, not the same person, my writing has changed, a lot, but at the time, it was me...
-The Faceless Travel
Im not much a writer but these are my words They're going to form a story just of a world It starts with a girl and will end with her too The Mysteries held within are between me and you
Its hard to tell from where it begins Because she didnt feel life until she met him Life had happened before, just not in her heart So lets begin, Lets take it from the start.
She traveled down roads some long and straight Others more troublesome, she never knew til too late Where she will end only he will know So she kept on running down all the wrong roads.
Most roads undiscovered were pure in her eyes Some she goes back to for the comfort of lies Old wounds from old travels hold her captive to old ways she tries to let go when she cant she just cries "Listen to what I have to say!"
"You know that I need you here by my side, to carry me through my life needs a guide I need your grace, your comfort and all of your heart you're what I've been needing, my life is ready to start"
There are places she goes but never alone These roads once desperate, now careful to roam With him by her side shes never afraid She knows the paths that she wanders, he already paved
The sky not always blue, the grass not always green She puts one foot forward, patient for the unseen Each road has a treasure and secrets untold Yet every encounter is a treasure alone.
She has her own struggles that you'll never know She wants you to know why but she feels so alone There are memories she has that she wished went away She tries to breathe deep inside when she cant she just cries "Listen to what I have to say!"
"You know my heart and even my mind you are in my life but where are you most the time! I know my life would be nothing, it started with you but I'm ready for more, can you give me that too!"
The wandering girl travels down yet another dark road Not knowing who is waiting for her hand to hold This is where she will meet the one he has for her This is all she has asked for, its love she is sure.
They go on their way hand in hand Some days it may pour, but they continue to stand She knows what it is, what it is her heart feels Shes been down this road but it wasn't this real
This girl and this boy dream of 'for forevers' She wants them to walk all their roads together But somethings not there, it hold the boy back She just wants to know what it is that she lacks?
The memories they make are her favorite of all She hopes her love is enough, but she feels so small. She wants the boys love but doesn't know the way She tries to not lose herself but when she can't she just cries "Listen to what I have to say!"
"How can it feel this way, so good and so bad? Sometimes I wonder does the boy miss what he had? Now you need to tell me am I wasting 'for forevers'? Or is this something the boy knows has always been a never?"
She needs that comfort of him and those words from his heart She never questions what the boy has from the start Here they are now but they came from such different places She knows that their lives have been filled with different faces.
The struggles she has are all from before She tries to forget them and move on to more She hates to admit shes afraid from her past She just needs to know their forever will last.
The boy has fears too, its something she can tell Her travels become faceless as her heart continues to swell She has lost herself in the boy and all of his ways She tries to be honest but when she cant she just cries "Listen to what I have to say!"
"I cant promise you 'for forevers' and days of sunshine but I can promise you this my heart is not mine I have done what I can, I don't know what else I can do But I guess its just one thing I will never hear from you."
1. Read at least 12 books a. Pride and Prejudice, must be one of those 2. Move to San Diego 3. Say yes more 4. Go on a date. by myself 5. Invest in a hobby-- bought a year membership to an outdoor boot camp 6. Go to a NFL game (Wasn't NFL but it was the OSU Homecoming game, which is even better!) 7. Run a 5k-- Did the Color Run, but didn't actually run it. So I will keep this up 8. Watch "Gone with the Wind" 9. Join a small group/book club 10. Go salsa dancing 11. Take a day off to go on an adventure 12. Cook dinner for a friend and take it to them 13. Visit a friend in a different city/state 14. Try 'The Bar Method' work out 15. Throw a themed dinner party 16. Visit the Monterey Aquarium 17. Write a letter to my former self 18. Make bread from scratch 19. Visit the Golden Gate Bridge 20. Make new friends 21. Create a new tradition 22. Go paddle boarding 23. Try Bikram yoga or Hot yoga 24. Come up with a personal motto-- "Do something today your future self will thank you for" 25. Learn how to sew 26. Learn how to golf