I just like this song...

I am not necessarily at this point, but I just really like this song :)


Lady Antebellum
Ready to Love again:

 Seems I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognized my own reflection, no
Scared of love, but scared of life alone
Seems I've been playin' on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it's time for me to let it go.

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again.

Just when you think that love will never find you
You run away but still it's right behind you, oh
It's just something that we can't control

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again.

So come and find me
I'll be waiting up for you
I'll be holding out for you tonight

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I 'fraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, ready to love again.

To have expectations or not...

Is it better to have expectations and be disappointed
or
To have no expectations and never be disappointed?

I feel like I just can't win lately, and I am constantly disappointed in people I thought I could put my trust in.
I want to believe that all the people in my life have their own expectations
and that they want to live those expectations for others and themselves.
Maybe I am wrong... But I don't want to not expect people in my life to treat me how they would want to be treated...


just super disappointing

Pet Peeves...

One of my BIGGEST pet peeves is....

when people don't text you back! I mean, really how rude is that?!
I know we are all busy people, sometimes it takes time to text someone back, but how little do you care about someone that you can't just spend the 15-30 seconds to respond to a text or call a person if you don't like to text.

The joy of texting is that you can talk to someone all throughout the day when it is easiest for you and you can't talk on the phone. If you don't know if someone is busy and don't want to interrupt, you can text them and they can respond when its best for them. But not texting a person back is just rude because we all know that everyone lives with their phones as their inspector gadget hand!

I get that talking on the phone is more personal, and I am getting better about talking on the phone. But, texting someone to let them know you are a thought in their day is one of the best feelings. Looking at your phone to see that your love has text you, always puts a smile on your face. Talking on the phone is great, but it doesn't last all day like texting can... that might just be what I am used too, but I don't think its a bad thing... 

not texting someone back is just plain rude, and annoying...

One Year Anniversary

One year ago today, I made one of the best life decisions with my momma!
I joined Weight Watchers, because I wanted more for myself!

Today, I felt proud, that I stuck to this lifestyle change for an entire year!

So today, Happy One Year Anniversary Momma! We did this together, all year, and I wouldn't want another partner in this!

Here is to lots more years!

Happy Things

In no particular order, these things make me really happy!

Peanut Butter M&Ms- blue ones to be exact

Reading outside at the park

Snuggling up in a blanket to watch a movie

Grilled Cheese and Tomato Soup - yummmmmm

Sharing in someone's Passions

Getting Pedicures

Starbucks, especially during the holidays!

Surprise "Thinking about you" texts

Laughing til your stomach hurts with friends

Confessions of a Single Girl

I really don't know how to play the game.
I am way too open and trusting, and I assume everyone wants that too.
Even to be a friend, there seems to be some kind of game

But I am learning, its all about the chase
And I need to learn how to play the game a little bit better

Or I am always going to end up disappointed.

Learning Lessons

This new season of my life I am learning a lot of lessons.

Mostly, I am learning that God really is trying to teach me thing that I have always ignored.
I have never let my guard down as much as I have in these last five months.
I have never had so much fun with my friends, getting to know new people, and rediscovering myself.
I really like to communicate with people. But I am learning, not all people like to communicate.
I am an open book, but I am learning I need to close my book and be selective of who I let into my story.
Heartbreak hurts, but great friends make it better.
It is what it is. There's not to much control I have but over myself, and even that isn't always certain.
Don't always put your trust in people, they tend to just disappoint you
I don't always know what I want, but I know what I don't want
I am meant to love, and will some day find someone who wants to love me back
Life is hard, Life is painful, but I will live it to the fullest
I need to learn to let go
I think way too much, all the time...
I want to start Yoga again, to clear my thoughts
I am learning a lot of life lessons during this season of my life, I won't take this time for granted. 

Speak the Truth

'Let it be Me'

Let it be Me- Ray LaMontagne

There may come a time, a time in everyones life

Where nothin seems to go your way
Where nothing seems to turn out right

There may come a time, you just cant seem to find your place
For every door you walk on to, seems like they get slammed in your face
Thats when you need someone, someone that you can call.
And when all your faith is gone
Feels like you cant go on

Let it be me
Let it be me

If its a friend that you need
Let it be me
Let it be me

Feels like your always commin on home
Pockets full of nothin and you got no cash
No matter where you turn you aint got no place to stand
Reach out for something and they slap your hand

Now I remember all to well
Just how it feels to be all alone
You feel like youd give anything
For just a little place you can call your own

Thats when you need someone, someone that you can call
And when all your faith is gone
Feels like you cant go on

Let it be me
Let it be me

If its a friend you need
Let it be me
Let it be me

I wish...

I have so much to say in my head but I can't find the words for it.

I wish I could say it all.

Never Forget

With all the other things going on in life, sometimes we forget to say Thank you to all the soliders, and their families for the endless sacrifices they give on a daily basis for our freedom and lives.

Nine years ago today, my mom woke me up and told me that one of the twin towers had been hit. I remember rolling out of bed, not really sure what she was talking about and going into our living room and watching the news and seeing the events of that day unravel. I was in the ninth grade. The junior high I went to wouldn't let us watch the news during the day. But my english teacher Mrs. Ruiz turned it on for us and let us watch it.

It is one of those moments, when this day comes around each year, as adults we will look back at this time in history and can tell the story of where we were that exact moment. Even 25 years from now.

Thank you to all the soliders, and their families for keeping us safe. I pray for the families that lives were deeply changed that morning. And for a nation under God.

"She's Walking Away"

Happy Saturday!

Confessions of a Single Girl

Confession of a Single Girl

I am loving how my life is right now. I love not having to worry about anyone else. I love not having to suppress myself because someone else isn't like me. I am loving this new freedom a lot, and its going to take a great Man for me to think about getting into anything serious in the future. So until then, I am just going to keep living my life how it is! 

"Compare where you are to where you wanna be and you'll get nowhere"- Sara Bareilles, Uncharted

Penny for your Thoughts

I just have a lot of thoughts going through my head right now so I thought I would write them down.

-I have the best friends in the world; I hope everyone has friends like mine.
-I may not know what I want completely, but I know what I don't want
-Yes, girls are complicated, but boys are just as complicated.
-Men on the otherhand, much more simple. I am looking for simple, thank you!
-I have a new favorite quote and encouraging word- "You are unrepeatable. There is a magic about you that is all your own..." -D.M. Dellinger
-I really want eggs, bacon, and hashbrowns
-I didn't know I could be this happy after being so broken
-This year, is going to be the best one yet because I am going to make sure it is
-I have the best momma and poppa a girl could ask for
-Your birthday is the best day on facebook... I am a love whore and I felt SO loved by all the comments.
-I love to be loved on
-I am loving being able to live my life how I want too
-Music has the answer to any question you ask
-"My heart won't tell my mind to tell my mouth what it should say"- Zac Brown Band, As She's Walking Away
 - I want to always live life how I am right now

The other F Word

Ok, not that F word... again

But I have the very best friends in the world.
Today has been an exceptional day!
I have felt so much love and gotten little surprises all day!
I am so blessed and thankful for all of you!

I wouldn't have been able to get through these last few months without you!
Love Love Love!

Dear Year 24

Before I blow out my candles

I wanted to let you in on my wishes for Year 24 

I pray for a hunger to live life to the fullest 

I wish for contentment and enjoyment in the simpliest thing 

I want to spend as much time with friends and family 

I would love to find someone to love, but its all on God's plan so if its not supposed to happen this year, I can live with that. 

I pray for fun memories with new friends, old friends, and family 

I wish that I will take advantage of the opportunities I am given 

I want to find myself in this 24th year of my life 

I would love to be happy. truly happy. 

I pray for health, happiness, and good things for my family, friends and self 

I wish for shoes. lots of shoes :) 

I want to cross off some items on my Adventures List! Anyone want to help me, let me know!

I would love to go through this 24th year, and be able to look back on it as my best year yet! 

Ok, Time to blow out those candles!

Kaleidoscope Heart

A lot of my girlfriends have been ranting and raving about the new Sara Bareilles album.
I have to admit, I am a huge fan of it!
Some of the songs really hit home, and today is one of those days that I will just play this song on repeat.

Gonna Get Over You
Sara Barreilles
Kaleidoscope Heart

Goodbye

Should be sayin' that to you by now, shouldn't I?
Layin' down the law that I live by,
Though maybe next time

I've got a thick tongue,
Brimming with the words that go unsung
Simmer then the burn for a someone,
A wrong one

And I tell myself to let the story end,
My heart will rest in someone else's hand
My 'why not me?' philosophy began,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

Maybe is a vicious little word that can slay me
Keep me when I'm hurting and make me,
Hang from your hands
Well, no more,

I won't beg to buy a shot at your back door
If I make it at the thought of you, what for?
It's not me anymore

And I'm not the girl that I intend to be,
I dare you darling, just you wait and see
But this time not for you but just for me,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

I stand corrected,
I know too well
And now it's much too late for you for me as far as I can tell,
Oh I say, oh yeah, yeah, yeah

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

Confessions of a Single Girl

Every girl wants their own version of Sex and the City.
Maybe not the sex in the city, but the idea of Big Love, the friends, the clothes... the SHOES

Who do you like better, Big or Aiden?
Recently I have been watching season four with one of my close girlfriends
I have decided I want to find my Aiden... Not so much my Big...

but my confession is:
Sometimes we are so worried about finding our Big or Aiden...
We forget to find our Carrie, Samantha, Miranda and Charolette.

I am going to stop worrying about my Aiden, he will come...
I am going to find my girls, and hold them close to my heart! I already know who they are...
Lets add to all the memories we have started!

"Trends come and go, but friendship never goes out of style"

The last year...

This will be the last year of my life that you will be apart of it.
Since I was 19, you were there.
24 will be a new year, full of new adventures, new experiences and new trials.

I know that on my big day, I will be surrounded by tons of friends and loved by my family.
I am really looking forward to it...

But I can't help to feel this gapping hole next to me- where you should be
I wish I could change how I felt, because I am happy. I truly am very happy.
But that void- is a huge place to fill.

Just one more milestone

Last Days of 23

This 23rd year of my life has brought all kinds of experiences.
I had my heart severly broken
I am finding myself after four years of being someone else's someone
Another year of my momma being a survivor
I am a college graduate
I am a super child aka adult... kinda

All of these things make me who I am today, they all play a significant role in who I will be in the future.
Here are 23 lessons I have learned over my 23 years (or mostly this year) :

23. Don't read into things boys do or say: you will always end up disappointed.
22. A card can say so much, send out a card to a friend whenever you can.
21. Just because I am nice to you does not mean I am interested or that I want to take you home to Momma and Poppa.
20. Country music always helps a heart heal
19. Learn to laugh at yourself- the best ways to do this are hanging out with friends, spending time with famiy, having mini dance parties alone, and just don't take anything too serious.
18. When you need a friend most, be a friend... it kills two birds with one stone
17. Count your blessings every day, and let them know they are being counted
16. Do not judge too quickly, be quick to forgive, give second chances when they are deserved
15. The right thing is rarely the easy thing
14. This life is not the Fairytale, I try to live in- You only live this life once, do it to the fullest
13. Everyone, everyone deserves to be loved
12. Don't regret anything... "Cause you can grow flowers from where dirt used to be"- Kate Nash: Merry Happy
11. Friendship doesn't always last, but the right ones will be there when you need them most
10. Always be True to yourself; Never settle on anything or anyone
9.  No matter how much you wish, pray, love for someone, they won't change unless they want too.
8. You're never too old to snuggle with your daddy, or laugh with your momma
7. Laugh loud, Smile big, Kiss often, Love Fully
6. Dad will always be a girls first love, Mom will always be a girls best friend
5. When there is a problem: Go to the person with compassion, tell the truth the best to your ability and always forgive
4. Have Faith. " If you have faith as small as a mustard seed nothing will be impossible for you." Hebrews 11: 1-3
3. Don't go a day without saying I love you. Always believe in Love. Love is the greatest of these. Love love.
2. Remember who you are!
1. God is bigger than me, His plans for me are greater than I can fathom. Always trust in Him.
oh and one for good luck...
 Shoes can make anything better- "One shoe can change a life"- Cinderella

The F word

Ok... not that F word!
Family!

I have the best family in the world.
Today, I was STRESSED out. I couldn't help but cry, a lot, because I don't know how to handle my stress and that is what I do to feel better! It wasn't a sad cry. It was just an I am at wits end cry!

Well, my dad tried to come in and console me, and I am inconsolable usually when I am stressed out. haha that is part of me being as stubborn as i am. A few hours later, when I calmed down Poppa Bear came in to ask me what I was stressed about. When I started to explain in tears, what ensued was something Poppa says "I will remember this one my death bed."

I am the baby of my beautiful family. And I have been well taken care of my entire life. I play the baby girl role very well. (If this isn't scaring you off yet future suitors... just keep reading) Well, I know something about myself that most people know but don't admit.. I will admit it- I am selfish. I have always been kind of selfish, just like everyone else is in the world. I don't feel like I am selfish all of the time, but I am growing up and starting to be a lot let selfish, and I feel like I am being a lot more selfless....

Today I was over being selfless! hahaha So I am in tears and tell my Poppa, "I am just over this being selfless thing!!" and then he laughs... if you know my dad, you know THIS laugh. He couldn't stop, then I started to laugh, and I couldn't stop.... This was exactly what I needed. I knew I was being ridiculous, but I needed to be a little ridiculous to get passed this stress bubble I had going on.

So thank you Poppa, for laughing at me, and then with me. It will be one of those moments in both of our lives I hope we never forget.

Yea... we had a marshmallow gun christmas fight this year... my family is amazing!

Be OK

September

Dear September,

I am excited for you.
I just have one favor...
Please be really really nice to me!

I am a good girl!
And its my birthday month!

But, I think you are going to be good...
because, I am gonna make sure that you are!

Thank you,
Katelynn Shae