I have been trying to find the time to sit down, and write these words
I had been struggling emotionally lately and I just couldn't figure out what was causing it...
In this process of trying to be the best possible version of myself,
One thing I have to do is be completely honest with myself.
But not ask myself questions that will never be answered...
What if I had done this differently?
What if this hadn't happened, where would I be now?
What if, What if, What if...
Sometimes you just need some tough love.
The "What ifs" don't matter, but this IS what happened...
But the next questions is Why do I feel the way I do?
Then I figured it out..
I was scared. scared shitless (sorry momma)
I was scared of change
I was scared of starting over
I was scared of being vulnerable
I was scared of not knowing what the future holds
I was scared of failing... again...
I was scared of won't live to my full potential
I was scared of the unknown
I was scared of constant comparison
I was scared
Not that I won't have moments of fear
about all, or one of these things again.
Because I am sure I will...
I just have to remember
"Fear has no place in my heart"
6 months ago