Once Again

I still have my days, and my moments... a lot
where I think, what are we doing?
how is this right?
what am I supposed to do?

I need you...

You get me
You know me
I can be me with you.

Today:
It still doesn't feel right.
It still doesn't feel ok.
I am really sad

Everyone tells me I need to be out there having fun
I need to move on and get passed these feelings
That this is right to them...
I have yet to feel those things

I am not sure how to do all these new "firsts" again.

Today. I am not ok.

once again.

When will I be?