There are a lot of things that take time. Mending a heart, is one of those things... at least for me it is. and I know it will be a very very long time because this heart of my is very broken
But its all about baby steps. Tonight, I cooked dinner for the first time in 8 weeks. I cooked dinner for one. just me. no one else. I ate my dinner alone. at my dining room table. in my chair. not his. I cleaned my dishes by myself. instead of drying them. It was one more piece of me shattering to pieces but maybe, it was a baby step in the right direction...
I hate to feel and seem so dramatic but this is me. I know I am still lucky. I know I am still blessed. But I know I am still broken.
and it still sucks. not my dinner. but being alone. and without you.
1. Read at least 12 books a. Pride and Prejudice, must be one of those 2. Move to San Diego 3. Say yes more 4. Go on a date. by myself 5. Invest in a hobby-- bought a year membership to an outdoor boot camp 6. Go to a NFL game (Wasn't NFL but it was the OSU Homecoming game, which is even better!) 7. Run a 5k-- Did the Color Run, but didn't actually run it. So I will keep this up 8. Watch "Gone with the Wind" 9. Join a small group/book club 10. Go salsa dancing 11. Take a day off to go on an adventure 12. Cook dinner for a friend and take it to them 13. Visit a friend in a different city/state 14. Try 'The Bar Method' work out 15. Throw a themed dinner party 16. Visit the Monterey Aquarium 17. Write a letter to my former self 18. Make bread from scratch 19. Visit the Golden Gate Bridge 20. Make new friends 21. Create a new tradition 22. Go paddle boarding 23. Try Bikram yoga or Hot yoga 24. Come up with a personal motto-- "Do something today your future self will thank you for" 25. Learn how to sew 26. Learn how to golf