This picture pretty much sums up how I am feeling right now... blue, confused, anxious, disappointed but there is still opportunity there. I hate looking to far forward into the future because it makes me very anxious. My thoughts are constantly wandering the "What If" aisle in my brain. What happens if I do this, or what if I did this? And how could this happen again, and what is it going to do to my future? These questions have been plaguing me today... I try to get around them, forget them, distract them but ultimately they are still there.
I don't know what else to say because there is a chance I just have too much to say... but I am warning you now... I am praying for a sign, and lets hope the Big guy reads my blog so he knows which one to send!
1. Read at least 12 books a. Pride and Prejudice, must be one of those 2. Move to San Diego 3. Say yes more 4. Go on a date. by myself 5. Invest in a hobby-- bought a year membership to an outdoor boot camp 6. Go to a NFL game (Wasn't NFL but it was the OSU Homecoming game, which is even better!) 7. Run a 5k-- Did the Color Run, but didn't actually run it. So I will keep this up 8. Watch "Gone with the Wind" 9. Join a small group/book club 10. Go salsa dancing 11. Take a day off to go on an adventure 12. Cook dinner for a friend and take it to them 13. Visit a friend in a different city/state 14. Try 'The Bar Method' work out 15. Throw a themed dinner party 16. Visit the Monterey Aquarium 17. Write a letter to my former self 18. Make bread from scratch 19. Visit the Golden Gate Bridge 20. Make new friends 21. Create a new tradition 22. Go paddle boarding 23. Try Bikram yoga or Hot yoga 24. Come up with a personal motto-- "Do something today your future self will thank you for" 25. Learn how to sew 26. Learn how to golf