i dont really know how to say what is in my heart right now. i dont want to falsify a relationship that wasn't there but my heart is torn for someone i would consider more than an acquaintance but not quite a constant friend. this person was not an everyday staple in my life but a lot of my memories with a lot of my friends, he is there. it makes me sad for him and all his close friends that it has ended the way it has. if i could take their hurt, anger, wonder away i wish i could. its so odd to me how small this world is. i was connected to this person through two different set of friends and even though he was not a close friend, i feel the saddness too. relationships are such a catch22... they can make you so very happy, yet they can hurt so bad when they are over, expectedly or not. again i dont know how to explain exactly what my heart is dealing with right now, i just know it is sad for those ones in my life.
1. Read at least 12 books a. Pride and Prejudice, must be one of those 2. Move to San Diego 3. Say yes more 4. Go on a date. by myself 5. Invest in a hobby-- bought a year membership to an outdoor boot camp 6. Go to a NFL game (Wasn't NFL but it was the OSU Homecoming game, which is even better!) 7. Run a 5k-- Did the Color Run, but didn't actually run it. So I will keep this up 8. Watch "Gone with the Wind" 9. Join a small group/book club 10. Go salsa dancing 11. Take a day off to go on an adventure 12. Cook dinner for a friend and take it to them 13. Visit a friend in a different city/state 14. Try 'The Bar Method' work out 15. Throw a themed dinner party 16. Visit the Monterey Aquarium 17. Write a letter to my former self 18. Make bread from scratch 19. Visit the Golden Gate Bridge 20. Make new friends 21. Create a new tradition 22. Go paddle boarding 23. Try Bikram yoga or Hot yoga 24. Come up with a personal motto-- "Do something today your future self will thank you for" 25. Learn how to sew 26. Learn how to golf